A Broken Sleep

I sit, I stare, I watch you sleep,
I watch you slip into the deep,
You lay there still, and make no sound,
I wonder what your dreams have found,
I lay awake unnerved by fears,
I listen anxiously to my tears,
You sleep unknowing what I feel,
Fearing what you dream is real,
The only movement, rise and fall,
Of your chest and that is all,
My only movement, blinking eyes,
My only downfall, no disguise,
I'm silent so you do not stir,
From your slumber to this blur,
I take my pills so I can sleep,
And lay with you in the deep.

Lovers Lost

Why bother talking for a while,
When spoken to like a child,
Why bother smiling it would be fake,
When all i think is I'm a mistake,
Why try and help when all I get,
Is snapped at then feel regret,
I try to cope and help get by,
Why bother when you wanna die,
My love for you is just and proud,
I'd scream it true and scream it loud,
Why bother when its not enough,
I never feel I'm good enough,
Cant always help or fight the tears,
What's the point of all those fears,
Trust! what trust it isn't there,
Your soulless eyes, they just lay bare,
It hurts, it digs, the pain is cold,
I'll die with you, one day and old,
And frail from a weathered life,
But die happy being your wife!
I love you, and I always will,
Full to the brim with all your thrills,
Regret nothing and live for today,
That's our life everyday.

Forgotten Dreams

If I could see a dream come true,
Id close my eyes and dream of you,
I see the smile tomorrow brings,
The happy thoughts and other things,
One single thought to stand out most,
A gentle and a cheerful host,
To bring the smiles and the glee,
Bring all the things I dream to me,
I love it when I fall asleep,
I dream and dream into the deep.

Lost In Loves Reflection

Staring at a looking glass,
Lost in lovers eyes,
I can see a broken path,
A smile can't disguise,

I can see a broken dream,
With memories gone astray,
A special love that took your hand,
But no longer leads the way,

Staring through the looking glass,
The eyes show no direction,
No way to turn, no where to go,
When lost in loves reflection.

Banishment

When this feeling takes over,
I don't know who I am,
I feel this sudden need,
I need a rush, a pain that feels so good,
To see it, the watch it,
The shine of it as it falls,
The silent noise as it pumps out my veins,
That feeling I long for,
Is forever banished,
And here no more.

Confessions of a Liar

A promise is made, but often forgot,
The passing of time, the ticking of clocks,
I wait and I wait, till nothing is left,
And here you will find me, asleep and bereft,
The promise you gave me means nothing, it's gone,
But one day I'll turn this rage into a song,
And you'll hear it and hurt, and break down, and cry,
Coz you know that it's you that failed and not I,
You'll wish for forgiveness, but never it comes,
Just the dreaded most feared, beating of drums,
Your heart will lay heavy, your body will weep,
As to hell you shall fall, and forever shall sleep.

Heartbreak of a Mortal

That's it, I give up,
The tears that shall forever haunt me fall,
And the pain that never leaves me remains,
I feel the burning, the sharpness of the knife,
Stabbing my gut, twisting to make me scream,
I cry, but no one hears me,
I scream till my lungs can't breathe,
And again no one hears me,
Why me? why does my heart do this?
Let yourself get this far, and crush it,
And leave the ashes to fly with the wind,
And forever cease to be.

Insomnia

At night I cry my silent tears,
To release all of my silent fears,
I lay awake alone and numb,
And slowly wait for sleep to come,

I sit and wait and watch you dream,
I wait all night it appears to seem,
I cry and cry till no tears fall,
My body's dead I've cried them all,

I wait for darkness to appear,
No more silence no more tears,
My body's dry and now I'm numb,
As I slowly wait for sleep to come.

Changes

Times are changing,
Getting better,
No more silence,
No more letters,
Things are moving,
World is spinning,
This new life,
Is just beginning,
Feeling happy,
No more lump,
And hopefully soon,
There'll be a bump.

Drained

Feeling tired,
Falling down,
Curled up in,
My dressing gown,

Getting well,
Feeling snug,
All wrapped up,
Just like a bug,

Coughs and sneezes,
Fade away,
Wake up ready,
A brand new day.