Heartbreak of a Mortal

That's it, I give up,
The tears that shall forever haunt me fall,
And the pain that never leaves me remains,
I feel the burning, the sharpness of the knife,
Stabbing my gut, twisting to make me scream,
I cry, but no one hears me,
I scream till my lungs can't breathe,
And again no one hears me,
Why me? why does my heart do this?
Let yourself get this far, and crush it,
And leave the ashes to fly with the wind,
And forever cease to be.

Insomnia

At night I cry my silent tears,
To release all of my silent fears,
I lay awake alone and numb,
And slowly wait for sleep to come,

I sit and wait and watch you dream,
I wait all night it appears to seem,
I cry and cry till no tears fall,
My body's dead I've cried them all,

I wait for darkness to appear,
No more silence no more tears,
My body's dry and now I'm numb,
As I slowly wait for sleep to come.

Changes

Times are changing,
Getting better,
No more silence,
No more letters,
Things are moving,
World is spinning,
This new life,
Is just beginning,
Feeling happy,
No more lump,
And hopefully soon,
There'll be a bump.

Drained

Feeling tired,
Falling down,
Curled up in,
My dressing gown,

Getting well,
Feeling snug,
All wrapped up,
Just like a bug,

Coughs and sneezes,
Fade away,
Wake up ready,
A brand new day.

Paranoia

It creeps, it crawls,
Gets under your skin,
Brings out the feelings,
Your hiding within,

It twists, it turns,
Gets into your brain,
It's making you cry,
And causing you pain,

It's nasty and horrid,
It's screaming your name,
And slowly it makes you,
Go madly insane.

Looking Back

When loneliness falls on you,
Your minds an empty drought,
You think of what you used to have,
And consume your mind with doubt,
When summer days no longer fill,
Your head with happy thoughts,
You think of what used to be,
And memories of all sorts,
When a smile no longer comes,
To put your mind at ease,
You think of the times you had,
And how much you used to tease,
And when your loneliness has gone,
When your emotions have been toyed,
You realise then and only then,
What looking back has destroyed.

Wanting and Needing

Wanting to hold you,

Needing your touch,

Wanting to feel you,

Need you so much,

Wanting your hand,

Need it in mine,

Wanting to hug you,

Need you too see,

Never want to hurt you,

Need just you and me.

The Silhouette Of Someone I Used To Be

I want to tell you,
But you've had a bad day,
Holding onto,
The things I wanna say,
I'm tearing myself up,
I'm holding back tears,
Wanting to tell you,
All of my fears,
Standing in the ruins,
I thought you needed me,
Instead i'm just the silhouette,
Of someone I used to be.

Relaxation

I feel for you no time to relax,
All your friends on your back,
Helping them, giving all,
Catching them when they fall,

All you want is happiness,
But they can't see this,
It makes me sad,
It makes me mad,

I can see your pain within,
The many heartaches scar your skin,
I don't know this pain,
But I try to understand in vain,

You mean so much,
I love your touch,
I'll help you through,
Because I love you.

Surgical Needs

Not long now till I go under,
Headaches rolling in like thunder,
I'm scared, worried and tired,
Stay awake...feeling wired,
Do anything not to think,
Stay afloat so I don't sink,
Counting down days,
Do what the surgeon says,
Hope to see your face again,
When I wake, hope to feel sane,
Normal at last, I pulled through,
I can carry on now, I have you.