Life On A Lie

What have I done to deserve such a lie,
So alone all the time I should just lay down and die,
You're here but you're not I feel so betrayed,
But I do often wonder if it would change if you stayed,
I can't keep this up, this lie and this hurt,
I'm feeling broken and damaged and burnt,
I'm sorry, I love you, but you need to change,
If you don't then I fear that this is the end.

Not Been Around

I haven't been around much, or posted anything new for a while, and for that I am sorry. I have been working on something new though so keep an eye out because I think this is going to be one of my best yet :)

It's quite sad, but I think it's will be something a lot of people can relate to.

If anyone knows of any good publishers, please feel free to comment :)

Let your creativity flow and know that you are an artist! The world is just waiting for you to shine! :)

Good luck to all and happy writing!

The Death of The Girl I Was

Drink my tears of sorrow, for sins of mine have ceased,

I shall be dead tomorrow, not living but with deceased, 

Pour poison in my blood, and drink till sickness takes you,

Die with me or die for me, tears you shall cry too, 

In death we seek a path anew, in life we seek our greed,

Drink the poison from my blood, you too shall see no need.

In darkness we fall together, in light we fall alone, 

Our fears combined, our bodies free our hearts cease as one,

Fester does my rotting corpse, guilt takes over you, 

This poison that you drank shall not cure this flu,

So drink my tears of sorrow for sins of mine are gone,

You shall be dead tomorrow, we live and die as one.

Heartache

I get sick of the lies,
Sick of the ties,
Tired of bullshit,
Keep spinning these lines,

I'll get out,
I'll just leave,
Then you'll be proud,
Proud of the person,
Who stood out from the crowd,

The girl who stuck by you,
Through tears and the pain,
And this is my thanks,
Well never again,

You can have back your sons,
And you can have back your love,
I'm sick of this shit now,
Fuck you I'm done!

Missing You

When I miss you it hurts,
And when i'm with you i'm lonely,
I want you here,
To always be with me,
Your my soul, my spirit,
And I cant be without you,
You mean everything to me,
I know you feel the same too,
You're my everything!

A Broken Sleep

I sit, I stare, I watch you sleep,
I watch you slip into the deep,
You lay there still, and make no sound,
I wonder what your dreams have found,
I lay awake unnerved by fears,
I listen anxiously to my tears,
You sleep unknowing what I feel,
Fearing what you dream is real,
The only movement, rise and fall,
Of your chest and that is all,
My only movement, blinking eyes,
My only downfall, no disguise,
I'm silent so you do not stir,
From your slumber to this blur,
I take my pills so I can sleep,
And lay with you in the deep.

Lovers Lost

Why bother talking for a while,
When spoken to like a child,
Why bother smiling it would be fake,
When all i think is I'm a mistake,
Why try and help when all I get,
Is snapped at then feel regret,
I try to cope and help get by,
Why bother when you wanna die,
My love for you is just and proud,
I'd scream it true and scream it loud,
Why bother when its not enough,
I never feel I'm good enough,
Cant always help or fight the tears,
What's the point of all those fears,
Trust! what trust it isn't there,
Your soulless eyes, they just lay bare,
It hurts, it digs, the pain is cold,
I'll die with you, one day and old,
And frail from a weathered life,
But die happy being your wife!
I love you, and I always will,
Full to the brim with all your thrills,
Regret nothing and live for today,
That's our life everyday.

Forgotten Dreams

If I could see a dream come true,
Id close my eyes and dream of you,
I see the smile tomorrow brings,
The happy thoughts and other things,
One single thought to stand out most,
A gentle and a cheerful host,
To bring the smiles and the glee,
Bring all the things I dream to me,
I love it when I fall asleep,
I dream and dream into the deep.

Lost In Loves Reflection

Staring at a looking glass,
Lost in lovers eyes,
I can see a broken path,
A smile can't disguise,

I can see a broken dream,
With memories gone astray,
A special love that took your hand,
But no longer leads the way,

Staring through the looking glass,
The eyes show no direction,
No way to turn, no where to go,
When lost in loves reflection.

Banishment

When this feeling takes over,
I don't know who I am,
I feel this sudden need,
I need a rush, a pain that feels so good,
To see it, the watch it,
The shine of it as it falls,
The silent noise as it pumps out my veins,
That feeling I long for,
Is forever banished,
And here no more.